I texted some of my old friends and i lied to them i made it seem like my life was interesting but really it's super boring

but i stopped myself before pouring another bottle but i know
i can't ignore the problem
sometimes i can't think straight
before making another stupid mistake

i can't fight this ugly feeling but this is me
trying don't you see that i'm trying
but i'm trying don't you see that i'm trying
these voices always get violent
but this is me i'm trying

i'm sorry mom for the bottles on the floor
i know i probably shouldn't drink anymore
i'm sorry dad for creating a family war

i don't know what the hell i'm doing
i'm no use for anything

i can't fight this ugly feeling but this is me
trying don't you see that i'm trying
but i'm trying don't you see that i'm trying
these voices always get violent
but this is me i'm trying