I need you far away

I saw you lurking in the hall
And I felt something different
You held no weight
A twist of fate
My shadow's not so present

Make me obsessive
Make me strange
Aren't you buried and dead?
It's like you never existed
So won't you leave my head?

I walk in circles hoping
It's just a relapse again
I need to move on and
Pull the weeds and let it end
It's never different
As much as cycles vary
Your hands were on my throat for
So long I can't feel a thing

I know you'll raise your head again
But I will fight you 'till the end

Watching you leave but never go
(And I still read those hurtful notes)
Wishing that I could break your hold
(I've done my time I'm letting go)
You dragged me through the flame
Burned through each passing day
But you should know your place
I need you far away

I remember when you threatened me with
Ending my life and I
Didn't want to bleed so I
Blinded my eyes
In the end it was worthless
I silenced your voices
I know who to run to when
I'm feeling hopeless

Watching you leave but never go
(And I still read those hurtful notes)
Wishing that I could break your hold
(I've done my time I'm letting go)
You dragged me through the flame
Burned through each passing day
But you should know your place
I need you far away

Reflect on my fear
And the choices we make
Disgusted with my weakness and the
Time I waste 'cause
You are no apex and prey I am not
You've done your damage
I need to move on
Let go
Shut up
I'm through

Watching you leave but never go
(I'll turn the blackness into gold)
I'm about to break out of your hold
(These memories are mine to hold)
There's nothing left to say
I'll hold the dark at bay
In the dawn of my new age
I'll keep you far away